Ingatkah engkau kepada..

Ku teringat, hati,
Yang bertabur, mimpi,
Kemana kau pergi, cinta
Perjalanan sunyi,
Yang kau tempuh sendiri,
Kuatkanlah hati, cinta

Ingatkah engkau kepada,
Embun pagi bersahaja,
Yang menemani mu,
Sebelum cahaya
Ingatkah engkau kepada,
Angin yang berhembus mesra,
Yang 'kan membelai mu, cinta

Kekuatan, hati,
Yang berpegang, janji,
Genggamlah tangan ku, cinta
Ku tak akan pergi,
Meninggalkan mu sendiri,
Temani hati mu cinta

Ingatkah engkau kepada,
Embun pagi bersahaja,
Yang menemani mu,
Sebelum cahaya
Ingatkah engkau kepada,
Angin yang berhembus mesra,
Yang 'kan membelai mu, cinta

Ku teringat, hati,
Yang bertabur, mimpi,
Kemana kau pergi, cinta
Perjalanan sunyi,
Yang kau tempuh sendiri,
Kuatkanlah hati, cinta

Ingatkah engkau kepada,
Embun pagi bersahaja,
Yang menemani mu,
Sebelum cahaya
Ingatkah engkau kepada,
Angin yang berhembus mesra,
Yang 'kan membelai mu, cinta

Ingatkah engkau kepada,
Embun pagi bersahaja,
Yang menemani mu,
Sebelum cahaya
Ingatkah engkau kepada,
Angin yang berhembus mesra,
Yang 'kan membelai mu, cinta......
#SebelumCahaya

As i was listening to this song,  i was thinking about all the lyrics.. It was not about the repeating lyrics.. It was about me,  the journey that i've been through.. Many ups and downs.. As for now,  all the past memories were flashback in my mind..

I still remember,  I woke up every morning,smelled a very nice sea breeze as I lived near the beach, took a bath with cold water.. Had a breakfast with hot milo.. Prepared to go to school.. It was such a nice memory...how I wished  I can cherish that moment again.. Hummmm,  I may sound that I am regretting something now,  but actually I am not..

Yeah, I am not.. As I was listening to this song,  all the flashbacks make me missing home so much.. This journey is not easy now.. And the quote is true.. "as I am getting older,  all I want is just a comfy home with a good food and surround with all the people I love.. "😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊

This song is like a lyric that potrays the inner me..It's like a voice that reminds me to remember the dreams that I really want to pursue when I was a kid.. It keep telling me to stay strong in this loneliness journey,  the journey that taught me to know who is The Almighty who will always being there for me, through joy and sorrows.. And yet as a human being,  I always forget what I've promised Him.. And yet He will never leave me alone..

And yeah,  He will never leave me alone.. All I have to do is just keep on the faith towards His plan for me.. And I know.. I do know that this not gonna be easy.. This is a plan, so I'll just go with the flow...😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊😊

Lihatlah yang baik-baik

Terjumpa tulisan ni dalam draft..I wonder why I didn't post it..tulisan ni I guess I wrote it about two or three years ago..masa tu ada sorang selebriti ni, mula-mula berlakon ramai yang bash kayu, pastu dia nyanyi tak sedap..dan sekarang dah kahwin pun..
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Baru-baru ni kecoh pasal artis yang takde apa2 pencapaian, takde bakatlah,  nyanyi sumbinglah,  berlakon kayu lah tapi buat buku..kalau buku yang bermanfaat takpelah jugak.. Ni katanya buku yang penuh dengan selfie and syok sendiri.. Baik beli buku 99 asma ulhusna ke buku pasal sirah nabi ke.. Lagi berfaedah katanya.. Hahahah kelakar kan Malaysian nih.. Semua nak kecam..

Opppss jangan nak fikir kita minat kat mamat tu plak.. I used to condemned his lakonan and nyanyian jugak tau coz i nyanyi lagi sedap dari dia.. (perasan).. And of course kita tak beli pun buku dia tuh.. Heiii memang taklah.. Baik i spend on makan ke beli baju ke,  tudung ke (alah biasalah pompuan).. Tapi bila dia buat buku semua orang sibuk nak bash dia.. Hurm,  after membaca beberapa komen2 yang menyayat hati, kita tak sanggup lagi, stop(banyak nau masa hang sibuk duk intai komen orang)

I just ignore and teruskan kehidupan yang memang biasa je nih.. Sedang sibuk bersosial media,  i found an interesting writing regarding to this issue.. Tapi kita tak nak lah copy apa yang ditulisnya,  it just that what he wrote actually open my eyes a bit (haa tulah orang suruh membaca malas,  sibuk nak bash orang macamlah dia bagus sangat) gulp!

From what i can conclude,  membuat buku ke apa ke as long as ia tak menyentuh kepada perasaan sesiapa,  menyakitkan sesiapa,  menjatuhkan sesiapa,  memusnahkan kehidupan sesiapa.. It will remain as individual's right.. Dan sebagai individu,  i have the right for not buying his 'rubbish', expensive book.. (ini defence ke offfence nih) come on guys,  ini bukan mempertahankan dia atau menjatuhkan dia (maybe dua dalam satu) hahaha.. So,  what i'm trying to say is,  hidup ini punya banyak pilihan.. (well aku pilih untuk bash dia jugak coz i dont like him) oh,  well up to u then..

Kita tak sempurna,  kadang2 dengan meng'condemn' orang, kita rasa kita lebih baik and bagus dari dia.. Kadang2 dengan mengata orang, kita rasa lega betul tak.. Nope guys,  actually itu menandakan dalaman kita sakit,  well im not saying that im a good person.. Kadang2 I pun tumpang sekaki dalam bergosip pasal orang nih.. Yelah syok kot bergosip nih,  lagi pasal retis uollss.. Hurm, nak cakap bnyak pun tak boleh pasal kita pun tergosip sekali.. Tapi ketahuilah,  dengan menyebarkan kebaikan itu bukan bererti kita baik sangat pun.. It just that we are voicing out our innershine pati berry gitu... Ahahha (nak cakap dia baiklah tu)

Haaa iollss memang baik pun,  uolls kenapa nak gaduh.. Haaa mehlaaa👊👊👊👊👉👈

KembaraIlmumimie

My journey almost come to its end..wah, baru awal tahun dah end dah..? Journey apa?  Perjalanan dalam mencari ilmu.. Moga2 ilmu yg dicari adalah ilmu yg berkat lagi bermanfaat.. The truth is,  it is not an easy journey, segala pahit manis suka duka lara semua ada.. And as compared to my previous kembara dalam mencari ilmu, i think this time paling menguji mental dan fizikal.

This time kemurungan tu boleh kata mainan jiwa dah.. It was a lonely journey and sangat2 mencabar kesabaran hati dan jiwa.. Orang kata,  phd will be the most loneliness journey yg setiap phd holders rasa.. Tapi belum sampai tahap tu pun kita dah rasa perjalanan yg sunyi tu..

But of course perjalanan master ni mungkin not as bad as phd.. And i really salute and admire for those who pursue their dream to the highest level of education as possible.. As i know and concern it is not easy to be on that level not for that title of "dr" only but the satisfaction of achieving what u want in life..

I wish that i will have the courage to pursue that dream too.. But as for now,  i'm still struggling thinking of what im gonna do after this.. But yet,  people would say,  u r not reaching that point yet.. That point of life where u have a lot of commitments, where it seems like u r chasing after the money among all.. Well we are living in the era of u need money for everything now people!

Hello,  even if i do not have that commitments as yours.. The way we are living seems like the same.. Maybe sekarang adalah masanya, umurnya what i think now is just what would i do next.. I know my life skrang biasa2 aje takde yang perlu dirisaukan pun..just finish your MBA and go for evrything that lies in front of you..

I know people.. I know it very well.. Some people say, u r still young and you just have many things to be faced ahead.. But as for now,  what i feel is just loneliness.. I know i have Allah to hear me out.. But yeah.. Here i am.. I still want to write this out.. This journey is easy if u think it is easy.. And yeah it is easy just the way you think.. And people say,  hidup ini ibarat roda,  sekejap kita di atas sekejap kita di bawah..

Cuba bayangkan,  dalam sebulan kalau kita hidup dalam duka sedih pedih kecewa,  mesti ada hari-hari yang kita tersenyum walau sekejap cuma.. Cuma pada ketika itu adakah kita memilih untuk terus tersenyum atau berduka cita adalah pilihan kita sendiri.. I wish that i could implement that saying.. Please go away the negative vibes.. I wanna be a positive person.. All of these issues of mine please i'm begging you to go away..

Setiap orang masalahnya lebih kurang sama, cuma cara kita menanganinya adalah berbeza mengikut cara pemikiran kita.. Kita yang harus pilih kita mahu hidup yang bagaimana.. Mahu terus maju atau mundur.. Yes!  Setiap orang yang dilanda masalah tak kiralah masalah apa pun pasti mahu terus menangis dan merintih tetapi jangan lah terus-terusan begitu.. Pilihlah untuk kecewa dan berduka sekejap cuma.. Lepas tu cari balik apa yang boleh mendatangkan positif vibes tu..

I know,  i'm not in the right position to advise orang right now.. But later if i read this post again,  i know what i am feeling and what i wanna be.. (kadang2 bila bosan suka tengok balik apa yang pernah kita tulis and alami hihi)  you can always turn back your past pages and take the good things out as your pedoman.. Yang buruk2 tu jadi kan pengajaran okey..

This will be a little reminder for me for the future. . As me too, always feeling sucks.. Nak2 lagi perempuan kan.. So that one day if i were in this kind of situation again,, (for phd life)  inshaa Allah.. At least i know i've been there and hey look at now i managed to get through it.. Inshaa Allah.. Fikir yang baik2, doa yang baik2, inshaa Allah semua yang datang adalah yang terbaik.. Aamiinn...

As for the mutiara kata yg i jumpa hari ni,
"jangan minta hidup yang mudah tetapi mintalah hidup yang cekal dan tabah"😉